Wise

A wise old man ever came to me.

He said,

"Young girl. You only have one love inside your heart. You only loves once. The first one. Once it has lost, you would never love any other person the same. It is too deep.. Just too deep..  You wouldn't be able to give other person the same feelings."

I just smiled back then. And whisper to myself,

"I have lost it uncle. I have lost it."

The wise man came just right the moment he left me.

Suffered for few years..

Then people asked me to open up my heart. Forget him.

I've tried. But get rejected.

Couple years later.. I got crush again.. Rejected. And this time no more frustration. I got crush to people easily.. And can move on easily..

People say that,

"Oh my god girl, how easily you are attracted to a guy. You do not know how the pain of moving on.. It is not easy you know."

I smiled.

I told to myself to hold my heart. Listen dude, I know it is not easy how to move on. In fact, I did suffered something that you just do not know.

Yet, i persuaded myself to say that other people also felt the same when they are frustrated.

Dude, I even couldn't manage to hear his name even it belongs to other person.. I could faint right at the moment when i hear his voice. But i gripped to myself to be strong.

Then later when you got rejected. Again and again without knowing where the wrong things that you did, those feelings of hopes has disappeared..

You started to deny the existence of love. You tend to believe it is nothing and you can live your life easily. Even after you got rejected. Since you are able to manage your psychology.

Dude, do you believe love does exist? I don't believe so.

My love one, the one that I love every time  I was breathing I would whisper his name. The one that I almost lost my life for.. Is now live happily besides the other person whom makes him happy.. The person whom said couldnt even breath if I'm not by his side, was crying whole heartedly afraid of losing me. Is now happy with the other girl.

I hope she would take a good care of him.. I wish he would live happily ever after with her.. That is what I pray for him..

Dude, do you believe love does exist?? I don't believe so.

I have surrounded with the marriage without love. How could this kind of relationship does exist? I don't even know.  I'm still trying to digest it.

Dude, do you believe love does exist?? I don't think so.

Look around you. There are fake people just give their best trying to make love. But the truth is, it never exist.

Therefore, do you still believe love is exist?? What for you grimace in pain for something unreal? Struggling to move on. Come on dude. That person is only a human that you believed will fulfill your other half of life.

The truth is, you come in this world alone, you are going back to Him also alone. The person that reliable to you when you face Him in the hereafter is yourself.

Listen dude, everthing you do is by yourself. No one is responsible for other people's life.

So you wanna say that I can crush and move on easily. Yes, I admit. But after I understand the life concept which determines that love is unreal thing that fooled people's heart..